57.

I get on by as best I can
I surely have one great fan
An intellectual being who knows my worth
That deserves a place outside this planet Earth.

What that worth is
I'll never know.
I'm full of myself at the moment
But watch me as sometime or another I will glow.

I dreamt in waves of death
and ecstasy
As much as I dream
It should never be.

I believed in you and me
But it seems not to be.

I don't know if you believe
In the love I have for you
But the memory remains
Of our walk of fame.

Going along that wall in June
I was alone, I shouldn't have been
If someone believe me, it was you
Only we have seen what we have seen.

I dreamt in waves of death
and ecstacy
As much as I dream
It should never be.

I believed in you and me
But it seems not to be.

I write these words in solitude and remorse
I was your one and only damned true curse.
Why I continue evoking these emotions in my mind
I find that fact so hard to find.

I just want inner peace and you by my side
From that fact I'll never be able to hide.
Maybe one day you'll read these words
And realise that you weren't just my sow's ear purse...


I never wanted it to be like this.
The life I had, I now now miss.
Settling and normality became so normal
I just wish that you'd given me a chance
And stopped me from the unrealistic advances...
I want to get involved committedly but I'm now stuck in a bubble...