20.

Everything slid by In the blink of an eye
A family problem I struggled to divide.
I should have been rational and compartmentalized.
All I could do was get drunk, moan and cry.
Everybody around me saw my Through my own shell;
A battered and bloodied person battling his own private hell.
Now years later something's finally rung that bell
How much damage has been done - you never can tell.