50.

Why don't you look deep down inside
And take comfort in pride
In what you thought that you'd done
You'd found your own home
Yet you let in him in to your domicile
And ruined your independent fun.

You spoke of stuff
But it all feels a bluff
In what I thought you have been:
Alone and safe,
Now your only to blame
For it to be ripped apart at the seams.

I dream of you still
And it still makes me ill
What was once once and still could have occurred
Now you tell me this
And I'm likely to miss
The things between us that should have unfurled.

I just want you to know
That I'm still alone
Yet I can't get you out of my head
You tell me that it's Karma
Yet I shouldn't bother
But you have until Friday, lest my Christmas be dead.

49.

The Witches all fly by shooting beams from their thighs
Whilst the omnibus sleeps without any lights
So shout as loud as the mutherfucker allows
And leave the body alone in the pen of sows.
You scream all night but your life is out of sight
And the day starts again with the morning light.
Repeat the day again, and everything is still the same
Your beginning to wonder if everything's still game.

Drink yourself away in water and blaze
But don't forget the preacher and the warnings he makes
Jesus will take you away if you surrender and obey
Yet some will be just mortals, and others shall be slaves.
You fuck your life away with no protection and cocaine
But you remember your immortal and it's your life to obey.
The snake in your hands will never let you understand
That your inclusive yet comatose in a rock and roll band.

What's the point in knowing?
Without ever showing
The point of illusion between me and you.
And yet the World goes on
In the eyes of your Son
You've used me and abused me, now what's the use?

I've thought and shot and stealed
The Lord I thought had healed
All my sins of satisfaction
But where the fuck's the compassion?
It's a theoretical question
But our lives are all lessons
On which we must learn
And sort the wheat from the dirge.

And yet I feel all this shit should still happen
From the lights there are no stoppin'
As we plough by, swiftly as in the blink of an eye
Oh tell me now who are we to ask just why?
We all stand aghast; looking at the ghosts of our past
So tell me now baby, how long can this now last?
It goes on until Friday, As from then on it's holiday
And until then you'll make the better option; of that I'll pray...

What's the point in knowing?
Without ever showing
The point of illusion between me and you.
And yet the World goes on
In the eyes of your Son
You've used me and abused me, now what's the use?

48.

Be with me and I'll be with you
In some way shape or form, we're held by strange glue.
People tell me to stay away
But there's something there and what it is; I just can't say...

We love and hate in equal measures
But we're both absorbed in our own innatimate guilty pleasures
What they are must never be known
Other than only between us like a dog with a marrow - fat bone.



We dreamed of what may have been
And we lived and saw things that should have been on the silver screen.
So why do I feel so down
Now that the situation is known, and we're both left alone with frowns?

I recall my way with words now
I tried my best, although I didn't ever know how
To explain how I felt
Yet all we're left with is potential emptiness and doubt



And now the days are forgotten
The months have surpassed they're sell-by date and damned near rotten.
Explain to me some things and be logical
I know my answers are no longer at the bottom of the bottle.

They are electronically formed
A type of communication despite usage, I rarely adore.
It's time to explain all to me
And understand our dreams... After all, the future relies on us breathing...

47.

And on the eighth day confusion reigned
The garden was awash with opiates.
The party was in full sway.
And the being looked down and said
Not this, not now, not today...

The pauper and queen were just seventeen
When the robbery occurred in the dream.
The poacher ran amok with a dentists sock
Trying to steal the most exquisite of frocks...

The frock was for a locksmith
Who had just lost their teeth.
All they ever wanted
Was to just be pretty in green.

The green came away when soaked through with pain
Of two lovers briefly touching each others lips again and again.
The lips inflated and pupils dilated
And they flew away as they both procreated.

But I've seen through the eyes of the man in the sky.
He offered me something that blew my mind.
The answers to all the problems of mankind.
I'll never know why.
He just said it was my time
To prove to the world I shine.

I saw one day the words that you say
They were travelling alone whilst talking on a phone.
It discussed the nurse in the hearse
And I'll losing it's purse.

But the purse was not found, save for a beagle hound
Who had whilst duty bound discovered a solitary pound
Whilst doing it's paper round
And being wired for sound.

But the sound was too much for the creature in a hutch
He broke out due to being so butch,
Hitting the security guard with his own crutch.
I watched it all and the observation was too much.

But then I awoke, felt the light and saw the pipe.
The bottle too was dry.

46.

I've been making waves with my bullshit detector
Where do you get off you midnight defector?
We drank and danced all night but you got waylaid
How much for a night would you like to have been paid?

I've been seeing
Things like beings
Out the corner of my eye
When I look at air
They're not there
And I wonder why.

We'd been making strides with regards to compromise
Months turned into weeks, and weeks became days
So hoooooow long, must I keep playing this song?
The time has come and gone, so whybother being bogged down?

I don't know why
I still look to the sky
To see that shooting star
And yet I've seen
Snippets of what could'a been...
This could turn nuclear...

45.

Well if silence is golden then why are you holdin'
My heart in your blood stained hands?
And why must you admit the times that you sit
Deliberating our ill gained plans?
And why for now why, can I not get so high
That my life just eases away?
Yet where you stand alone, you say goodbye
While I just moan, stay where I am and sway.

So forgive a man that got lost in the sands
Of dusty and bottled old rum.
From coughs and colds to swollen glands
I only wish that I had the company of a gun.
But don't ever let it be said now that romance is dead
For the love I had was askew.
For too long a time, I had just lost my mind
Now I'm simply just used.

So let's sleep and dream for one more day it seems
I'll just waste away
My soul and my pride got lost in the divide
Between my heart and your own legs.
And it's time to say goodbye, for the hope and the whole night
Has become forgotten so easily
I wish I could say that this all would fade away
But it's now been there for all to see...

44.

If your a fan of classic cinema,
Give this a look.
It's all based on a book
By the works of Asgardhr
No one ever pulls any one near
But it's all packed full of fear.

It's called Gylfaginning
And it'll keep your head...
Relatively grinning...
Just remember the following...
Hands by your side
Touch no other divide,
Keep your pride
And be who you want... tonight...